my story

mamaku mungkin skeptis

mamaku mungkin seseorang yang ga menghargai persahabatan sebanyak aku

tapi...

itu ga membuat aku orang yang sama

aku orang yang benar benar berbeda dengannya

aku orang yang mencintai persahabatan dan esensinya

aku orang yang menghargai persahabaatan lewat secarik kertas atau potongan majalah

aku orang yang bersedia tidak tidur untuk seorang teman

aku orang yang menangis karena mendengar satu kalimat

aku orang yang mengabaikan apapun demi apa yang kuinginkan

semua itu sempat terkubur

hidup ini keras, kata seseorang

sempat membentuk aku yang berbeda

tapi hari ini aku rasa aku kembali

ga ada seorang pun yang mengerti tingkahku

cuma aku

aku orang yang menghargai hal hal kecil dalam hidup satu juta kali lebih dari pada orang lain

dan aku bangga

terserah apa kata kalian bahkan keluargaku sendiri

aku itu ya aku

hidup dengan itu atau tidak sama sekali

HAIR CUT!!!!!!!

let's get to the point immediately

I WILL CUT MY HAIR!!!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

i'm panic!!!!

okay so the decision is all mine, but the execution???

what if she cut the wrong hair, what if she forget how to cut it in the middle of the way??what if she cut in the wrong line????what if, what if, and a lot of what ifs

it's not my first time, i cut my hair though 2 months ago, and as my model FARA FAWCETT, it was freaking hot, but it grows and on and on, it's very long now. my hair almost touch my butt, damn it's too long

it's just i don't feel healthy living with them, something is really really wrong with this hair...

i'm gonna cut it short, not so short probably in line with shoulder or even lower...

god!!!this is very hard....

hmmm, but

posting this post makes me even want to cut this hair now

so bye, imma off to...i don't know, hair stylist? who am i kidding? some place which has some women to be asked to cut my hair nicely, hhh this better be a god hair cut, or i'll kill her

*none of those matter cause none of you will ever see my hair anyway ahahaha

imy

i miss the way you look at me, indicating...nothing

i miss your voice, my favorite sound in the world

i miss the way you walk

i miss everything about you

but since i can do nothing, i'll just wait

when you come back, just wait and see...

FOOL

i have never date anyone, let alone being kissed. ha!

but like many of most people on earth, i have been in love

and like some of those many, it does not work

i have little crushes all the way i lived

but for the same three years, i am stuck with this guy. Coming out of nowhere, captivate me with his mistery -ahaha i know, i know, you can barf now-

when i was adoring him, he was busy flirting with other girls, hmm fool me

not that i let myself being fooled like that, i tried so hard to get out of his charm but i ended up adoring how his eyes are sooo gorgeous every single time i try

i tried to like other guys, but i will find a way back to love him

i guess that's what you call by, uhmm first love?

never gonna be forgotten and replaced by anyone

just like the stain that last for years on your favorite shirt, it's not pretty but it reminds you of how you get it. It will stay there forever

and you know what, though it's cliche every time i look at you i forget how life is tough on me

some jumped off the bridge for the feeling i have for you

but you know what, i choose to reminisce you knowing that maybe, just maybe we will never meet

but if i get a chance to meet you i will not miss it anymore. That day i will come to you and tell you how i feel about you these times. And that day i will captivate you and charm you. And you will regret it , but it would be too late for you

not for me....

HANG OVER

one day out of nowhere, we met this girl...a very very weird girl

sama sekali ga terlihat seperti cewek...

dia suka pake kaos oblong warna hitam yang gambar nya bukan bunga-bunga atau burung terbang di langit, melainkan kaya skull atau dark things lainnya. Bawahannya celana jeans besar (read. sama sekali bukan skinny). Ga pake flat - emang ga cocok juga sih- melainkan sepatu basket yang besar dengan warna merah membara

walaupun dia bukan tipikal cewek normal tapi serius ya, her heart is way better than any girls you've ever met. She's very humble, sincere, mature, and such a great human being.

setiap keluar ke tempat baru orang-orang selalu kaget kalo dia dinyatakan sebagai perempuan. Soalnya selain stylenya potongan rambutnya juga ga mencirikan kewanitaan...

safira me and her used to debate together, in a team. we were very close. They are to me, like sisters.

it has been less or more a year since safira and I debate for the last time with her...She's somewhere now, doing very great...

she never let me forget how much she misses me and safira debating together as team.

today, i received a very surprisingly great story

in a condition where she was not conscious, she remembered only us, the team... it breaks my heart...i practically cry, how much i don't take her seriously back then. Knowing that it hurt so much now, without her...i feel so guilty and sorry for her and myself

the thing that she said, was how much she missed us...me and safira

now, i miss her more than ever. i want to see her and give her a very big hug and any treatments she deserve

this i promise myself and her, if i ever see her again... i will do whatever she asks me, everything, all that she asks...i promise you...

and believe me, i will see you...i will...

RUTH GRACIA NAINGGOLAN, YOU ARE THE GREATEST PERSON I'VE EVER MET IN THE WHOLE WORLD...THAT POSITION WILL NEVER BE TAKEN BY ANYONE AT ALL, FOREVER...

the graduation

if you don't notice very close, i look like someone who loves to get mad, some people say i look fierce, others say i have a very serious expression

but, closer than you might be i am actually very uhm, fragile -cliche, urrgh- i cry a lot, titanic, baby's birth, farewell, good songs, nice words, gaaah i know those seem stupid things to cry but that's just the way i am, including this

for three years in high school i' ve learned most of the things teens our age experience, broken heart and resurrect from it, friendship and it's complications, failing and doing great

but none of the will worth to remember without the most ingredients best friendship...

without having those people who are ready to back up all the time, i will never go through those series of unfortunate events in my life safely, my best friends are my guardian

like one time, i cry for this boy -eww, i know- that i fall so deep, my friends was trying so hard to convince me that i'm okay without him...and you know what those kind of events are just impossible to tell to parents or sisters, but friends they are in an extraordinary way can make us tell all stories we hide and heal them spontaniously

now that we have graduate, usually we check out each other everyday for ,more than 7 hours, now those times are just a series of nice memories

those times that we laugh so hard until we fall from the chair and your tummy numb those are going to be engraved in our heart forever

those times when we help each other in exams...hmmm they will never be forgotten :)

my friends worth every happy tears in the world, they worth the world to me. Nothing will replace their place in my heart and my brain

now that we have graduated and that we have lived on our own road, i bid you farewell and hope to meet you all very soon..

PROM STUFF AND WHATEVER

Hey those are my stuff that i prepare for prom night

without being cheesy or whatever, i just want to...uhmm well you can say a bit show off

and a bit curious of people's comment on it

so don't bother to leave your comment here...
anyway

I AM SOOO LOOKING FORWARD FOR ANY COMMENT....

OR MAYBE SUGGESTION ON THE COLOR OF VEIL I SHOULD WEAR ACCORDINGLY TO THE DRESS

THANK YOU!!!!!

PS: I REALLY LOOOOOOVVVVVEEEEEE THE HEELS!!!!

saya,saya,saya

saya pernah di beritahu kalo orang terpenting di dunia ini adalah

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DIRI SENDIRI

so, isi blog ini tidak lain dan tidak bukan tentang diri saya sendiri

hahahaha, naif nyaaa

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