the graduation

if you don't notice very close, i look like someone who loves to get mad, some people say i look fierce, others say i have a very serious expression

but, closer than you might be i am actually very uhm, fragile -cliche, urrgh- i cry a lot, titanic, baby's birth, farewell, good songs, nice words, gaaah i know those seem stupid things to cry but that's just the way i am, including this

for three years in high school i' ve learned most of the things teens our age experience, broken heart and resurrect from it, friendship and it's complications, failing and doing great

but none of the will worth to remember without the most ingredients best friendship...

without having those people who are ready to back up all the time, i will never go through those series of unfortunate events in my life safely, my best friends are my guardian

like one time, i cry for this boy -eww, i know- that i fall so deep, my friends was trying so hard to convince me that i'm okay without him...and you know what those kind of events are just impossible to tell to parents or sisters, but friends they are in an extraordinary way can make us tell all stories we hide and heal them spontaniously

now that we have graduate, usually we check out each other everyday for ,more than 7 hours, now those times are just a series of nice memories

those times that we laugh so hard until we fall from the chair and your tummy numb those are going to be engraved in our heart forever

those times when we help each other in exams...hmmm they will never be forgotten :)

my friends worth every happy tears in the world, they worth the world to me. Nothing will replace their place in my heart and my brain

now that we have graduated and that we have lived on our own road, i bid you farewell and hope to meet you all very soon..

when people ask i'll say " i didn't make it to my prom"

just 3 days before prom i received 2 breaking heart announcement

i decided to miss my prom since then, not because i failed in making it to good universities but more of uhmm...maybe because i'm scared that prom wouldn't be that much of fun since i failed

if you see my post earlier you would fine some pictures of my preparations for prom. you can say i was all set. there was nothing wrong with everything until i found those two announcement.

you would wonder, "she went through all those troubles making clothes, and practicing heels for more than 2 week....what for?if in the end she was going to abandon them" and if you notice i've prepared them on the side of my stairs, the dress, the bag, the heels. but i never get to wear them forever.

well here i am, watching demi lovato on disney channel making jokes "fine!fine!fine!fine!". i know you would say "pathetic"...sitting in front of my laptop and imagining what a wonderful night my friends might be having make me sick. but then again i make choices. sometimes people make good choice, other times they're bad...but as long as you make the dicision yourself, uhmm i guess i wouldn't regret it

i felt like i'm outreaching my dreams...but you know what it's fine, i'm fine

i wish everyone coming to prom tonight would make their night very blast and wonderful...have yourself some unforgettable evening people!!!